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Women….
I don’t really know where to start but I’m pretty damn sure what I want to talk about. Well, we’ve been involved with women since we were given birth to this world. Moms, of course.. I certainly love my mom very much but for others I don’t know but I hope they do. Love from mom is definitely something different from other types of love. My grandma used to say to me that love from mom is purely love. Actually I have longed realized about this thing. Through my own experience… My bro used to do a lot of bad things to my mom, but its surprising to see but yet to be expected is the way my mom reacted to all those things my bro has done. She never given up hope for my bro and alhamdulillah finally my bro understood that. After what I’ve gone through my life for the past 22 years, I am definitely sure that I would never find such love like that. It is so holy that I would never ever think that I could ever find one like that anymore.

As long I could remember, I only know the word love when I was in standard 6. But it pretty fucked up definition then, I think. I was so young and my mind was not really matured to come out with the true definition of love. Anyway I guess its the same thing for her. At that time, she is probably one of the “hot stuffz” in my school maybe because she is cute. At that time I was thinking that if I ever get to walk with her, I will feel very proud of myself. For her I think, I’m also not a bad person to walk with when she knew I am the prefect vice president. See, what a fucked up definition of love.

Anyway, the story ends just like that. We used to hang out together but I never did say or declare anything to her. After completing the primary school, I was offered to one of the best boarding school in Malaysia. And what a disappointment when I only know then that the school I was admitted to is a boy school. I dont think there’s anything to tell about those 5 years I’m in the boy’s school. As far as I can remember I only get to have my social life with girls when I am out from the school or when there is any occasion in my school. What I can summarize is that I never get to know girls pretty much at the point of time, they are growing. I believe that the secondary school level is the time where we can see a lot of change in a girls life. And somehow I feel disappinted I miss that chances. Anyway, times goes by where
everything cannot be turn back. I go on with my life in search for the true definition of love.

to be continued…..