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After completing my studies in SAS, I was offered a place in UTP. Well, at first I was a little bit disappointed since I was hoping that I could further my studies in overseas, but I guess it’s the better choice for me. Anyway it was an excellent decision that I’ve made looking at the achievement I acquired during my studies in UTP. Only Allah knows what would have happen to me if I was to further my studies in overseas. Hehhehehhe…

Campus life is always an exciting moment for everyone who have the chance to get in. It is the moment that you’ll remember for your whole life. So to anybody who will and is experiencing their campus life, just make sure that you make it an interesting memory for you to bring along for the rest of your life. Once you’ve got to work, you will have more responsibility, lesser leisure time and you’ll start to feel more energy drain out from you.

As early as first year, I’ve opened up my first chapter of love. However it did not turn out very good. Most probably caused there are too many differences between us. And I guess the way I approach her is also not acceptable kot. There is also this one girl who shows her interest in me, but I guess I’m not interested with her, so I just rejected her. The way she approaches, scares me. I’m not saying that I don’t like the idea of having a girl making the first move but there are better ways of how a girl should tell their feeling to a man they like. It doesn’t have to be so straight forward and it shouldn’t be so secret. Some might say that you should try to see whether she suits you or not first but in reality at first glance we will know that whether the girl or the boy has the possibility of becoming our couple. And I guess I don’t like the idea of giving hope that you are not sure you can fulfill it or not. Unless I’m certain with my decision, I’m not going to go on with the relationship.

Second, third and fourth year, I was really busy occupying myself with my cocuriculum activities that I forgot about having relationship with girl. And I guess it was the moment that I enjoyed very much. Learning about how to run a programme from the beginning until the execution, managing a committee, managing an organization, communicating with people and lots and lots of other skills that I would never imagine I could have acquired if I only sit in my room, playing with the computer. I don’t really like politics but I’m certain that it is a must in our life. Politics can bring harmonies if people use it correctly but unfortunately nowadays it is likely to be use for destruction. I would never have thought that even in politics as small as campus election, people would try to do dirty job just to make sure they’ll get the position they wanted. What’s making thing worse if people who did this dirty thing are hiding themselves within a very good organization they involved. If things like this happen not only they will bring shame to themselves but they will also bring bad reputation to the organization they lead. In short, “Matlamat tidak pernah menghalalkan cara”.

When I was doing my practical, once again I tried to approach this one girl that I’ve been looking at for sometime. So, I beranikan diri phoned her, ask her out and always keep in touch. I’m not a direct person so I don’t really have the courage to declare my feelings toward her. So I just keep in silent and tried to show that I cared for her with all those things we’ve done together. Unfortunately, again things did not turn out as I expected it would be. Just when I want to confess, some bad things happen and we just get on with life like nothing has happen before. I feel really frustrated looking at the time I’ve spent and those things that I’ve done but I guess that is what it takes in this kind of relationship. There is no guarantee that you can be a successful person. If it is a success, then it is good for you but if you fail just takes it as something that will make you more mature in handling this type of relationship.

So I go on with my life and just before I completed my studies, the feelings come again. I don’t really know when or where this new relation that I’ve built will go but what I’m sure is I really like her. We don’t know what will happen in the future but I believe that what we do now will determine what will happen to us in the future. I hope that things would work out between me and her. May Allah bless us.

Anyway, I have always realized from long time ago that true love is …… To be continued in the last chapter of “In Search for True Love” – (4) – “the answer”

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